Hah thanks, I really appreciate it.
Been awhile since I’ve been on this joint, lol.
plain and simple I just want to know you still care about me because considering how happy and perfectly okay you are now it’s like there was never an us to begin with lol
If I’ve ever wronged you, snubbed you, or have done anything for you to feel any sort of animosity towards me.. please believe I had not intended to do so. I have this problem with retreating from people when I feel them getting too close, or if I feel that sudden urge to open up to them. Because if you get too close then you’ll see who I really am, and to be honest that scares the fucking shit out of me. I’d be lying if I said I was content with who I am, so if I feel that way then I’m pretty sure.. no, absolutely sure you wouldn’t like me either. So this is to all those in my past who I’ve “left behind”, as some of you have said. I really wish I could maintain relations and friendships but it’s such a difficult and distant concept for me. How can I possibly believe that anybody who spends a significant amount of time with another person, can still manage to see the beauty of them?
Letting things be the way they are may be the best thing you can ever do for yourself. No matter how much you think you can change a person’s mind; you’ll be out of luck. A person should change because he/she wants to. And if it was really in them, they’d do it in a blink of an eye. So, stop for a second and ask yourself if you want to keep moving forward in someone so inconsistent. You know deep down inside you, you deserve better but you just choose to ignore the signs. Well, I’m here to tell you quit what you are doing because it sure is not making you happy. You deserve to be more than happy. Stop taking things in your own hands and leave it up to God. He’s working when you can’t see it. All he asks of you is to have faith and patience. Remember, the best is yet to come. Just enjoy life. Be grateful for the little things in life. Like having a family, friends that love you, and admirers who adore and look up to you. Remain strong and smile.
hiiii, okay i've been following you for a while now, well i guess you can say it's been a while, it's been a few months anyway, i never really got the time to appreciate your blogging, writing and all that good stuff. to me you are odd, different and a lot of bloggers are all different indeed but the way you talk or how you think. i dunno, i like it. okay, besides the long rambling, what i'm trying to say is that i appreciate your thoughts, blogging or however you wanna call it. =]
This song never gets old.
Fall for your type.
How could we ever see eye to eye when all of our instilled worldly views differed from the start? And I don’t mean the start of us, I’m thinking more about our childhood. Like most girls, you were treated like a princess. Things I grew up fighting for, were given to you. You grew up with a family of love, mine was one of despair and negligence. In essence, the coldness was always there. Your sense of authority was embedded from the get go, you felt the world needed to be handed to you, I felt the world was for the taking. So you searched diligently for that man who would give you the world, and therein lies the disconnect. In the midst of all my soul searching, I couldn’t find the universal truths of love and trust within myself, you came along and looked for those things in me. I was never able to provide, so we were never meant to maintain. I slipped into the dark abyss, I couldn’t provide you with light. In essence, the darkness was always there.
You always did more for others than for yourself, and in turn you lied miserably at night, wondering why the reciprocation was running late.
I always feel that my best qualities are often overlooked.
Maxwell | Fortunate